Hope it doesn’t take the rest of my life til I find what it is I’ve been looking for…

So, here it is: 5:54 in the morning on April 22nd, and I’m still awake.

Yep.

What have I done?

Not a darn thing, really. Screw around on Facebook, mostly.

But I finally sucked it up and dealt with my pride and emailed my mother back and told her that I’m done being a stubborn idiot and am asking for help and that any would be greatly appreciated.

And then I mentioned the fact that our house in West Palm Beach was back on the market, less than 5 years after we put it up for sale. I found this out, just by Googling Victoria Woods (the development I lived in) and *boom* there it was: 5752 Rambler Rose Way. I took a gander at the listing, and was rather surprised to see it looking exactly the way it did when I last saw it in July 2004. Everything was in tact: The crown moulding my mother and I did ourselves, the tile flooring that my friend’s dad did for us, the dining room chandelier painted the way we painted it, the kitchen cabinets the same color we painted them (and GOD, that was a pain in the ass to do!) and the stove and the refrigerator the exact ones we had. The hallways and living room the same color my dad and I painted it (Noticing a pattern here? My mother was a freak about painting crap for no reason!) my parents bedroom the same color, even their bathroom with the stamps on the walls that my mother and I did…the bathroom in the hallway (mine, my brother and sister’s) with the same shower curtain and the cabinet with the same detail painted on it, my brother and sister’s room with the same vinyl flooring and colored walls, and my room…the picture of my room, taken from the doorway, facing the wall where my bed once stood, the walls still a baby blue color. The garage with all the shelving my dad and grandfathers installed. The house is even the same color my dad and I painted it.

It’s just surreal to see the house I grew up in in the exact same state I last saw it in.

*sighs*

Anyways, let’s see if anything comes to fruition from this recent attempt at reaching out.

(BTW: Anyone know if Steinbrenner or Girardi got my last couple of memos? Because if Wang is starting against the BlowSox on Friday, we’re screwed. ;) *LOL* Oh, and w00t to the Yankees being in second place, right ahead of the Sox! Here’s hoping some good will come out of this season!)